Introducing…

40 days and 40 nights un/satisfied

day 1

I overheard someone say that they hope to never be satisfied, because once they are that’s when they’ll have truly given up. Because once you’re satisfied, what do you have left to fight for? I’ve always been made to feel like I’m too much – too loud, too opinionated, too tall, too sexual / vulgar, hungry, horny like the fact that I want is an abomination in and of itself, especially as a single woman. I’ve always been someone that’s driven by impulse, so who would I be if I didn’t have that?

I’ve decided to launch a one-woman mission, for 40 days and 40 nights – bless up to big Jesús for providing the inspo for this one – I’ll take away the wanting.

I’ll deny myself caffeine, chocolate, alcohol, sex – if any of those hinge dates actually turn into something – and yes, even masturbating. Considering I just bought myself a BRAND NEW vibrator it’s going to be pretty tough. And I’ll be reporting on how I’m doing here. Then, the 40 days after, I’ll gorge myself on all those things. From unsatisfied, to satisfied spinning from the first 40 days to the next. It’s a total experiment.

Self pleasure, fantasy and food have always been an easy way for me to feel satisfied, temporarily fill that space between my head and heart. So, this blog is going to be an exploration, a conversation with you (hi hello there reader, you’re soo welcome, take a seat, put on some cinnamon scented slippers and feel free to text your mum). It will be a conversation with you about bodies, how it feels not to have someone or something to fill me up, people which leave me wanting more, give me a temporary respite or sometimes spark something insatiable: food porn, real porn, the romances, relationships and FOOD, glorious food that help me to feel #satisfied, even if it’s just for the night. I don’t really know what’s going to happen next, but I really hope you’ll come along for the ride.

Send me a voicenote on +44 (0) 7906 796 695 and let me know what makes you feel #un/satisfied, how you’re feeling on all things food, self love, sex, body and brain related and I’ll be sharing them anonymously in voice notes, but feel free to introduce yourself if you’d like to.

Is it dumb to put my real number on the internet?? Probably.

So sincerely,

 Tiffany Black,

Your friend that you will (hopefully one day) snog in real-time-serious life this year xox